I don’t cope well with change. To feel comfortable with any new way of doing things I have to do and experience it over and over again at my own pace and without pressure. I suppose if I’d been able to employ this method to driving as my father did in the 1920s I would probably be a driver, but having to sit with someone in a box,  being told what to do I found it too overwhelming. After four different driving instructors and 100 hours of tuition I gave up. I do regret it. When I’m living in London it’s no big deal but here in Ireland it means dependency or isolation.  When I was doing my teacher training twenty years ago we had o produce a piece of work done on the computer. I froze. I was terrified. My tutor said it was easy, just like driving a car. Seems hard at first, but then it’s automatic. He was stumped when I said I didn’t drive. I managed to produce something and passed the course, but I have never been entirely comfortable with technology. I have learned to email and to word process and to look things up on the Internet. I still press the wrong buttons and post strange things on Facebook. Doing this blog is an exercise in itself and I don’t think anyone reads it, but doing it is what matters. However, the point of this is that I’m having to cope with a new and serious challenge. I can’t give up like I did with driving as I was half way through teaching two courses before lockdown and I can’t let my students down,so I have to adapt and learn to teach on line. I’ve started by doing some online courses myself. They are lecture based and my courses aren’t so I will have to adapt them. I know I will do it, but I’m very scared.   As I’m old I’ll probably be banged up for quite some time, so if I’m going to carry on teaching, this is the only way forward.  I need to find my own way.